I'm so terrible at this.

I changed my background (finally) but I've been noticing that I suck at everything in life. Blogging would definitely be on the top 100. lolI'm still trying to find a new one...I've never really liked any of them that I've had...:(

Christmas is right around the corner (whoo!) and I'm getting pretty excited about my birthday, which is on the 29th. I am soo freaking determined to have a good birthday this year. Frankly, the last 4 years, have MAJOR BLOWED in the birthday department.

I guess I'm not expecting fireworks on my birthday, or even a couple friends to call me, remember, or get me gifts, or get a party. But some sort of acknowledgment would be nice.

Let's just say, my birthday's usually end up with me crying in the front seat of my sisters car drinking coconut rum straight up in parking lots.

*ahem*

So! Here's a dallop of pledge to myself. I'm not going to take shit from anyone. I'm not going to expect anything. Nada. Nothing. ZIP.




P.S, funny birthday history: ONE birthday, I tried planning my own surprise party, only because it was turning out so terrible, that I convinced my best friend to tell my other friends to 'randomly throw evie a surprise party'. It failed terribly. And it hurt so much more when I knew that my friends weren't my real friends. (except you miss margaroon, forever n' ever!) ANOTHER birthday, (my 10th birthday) I had to kick everyone out of my party, and get in a car because a very close family friend died, we drove to arkansas that night to get to the funeral in the morning. Another birthday, I actually did drink coconut rum with my sister in the car. In the morning my grandma told me she wanted to take me to my favorite restaurant for my birthday, but instead took me to ikea (my least favorite place in the world, lol) and then got in a huge fight with grandpa, making a huge scene where she stomped off, leaving me to go home with my pissed off grandpa. Then, later that night, I was having a party that I threw for myself, and nobody could show up because of a snow blizzard.