Singing.

Well. I guess it's true that I am officially back. I did my set with Danielle, and the other one with Jessica. I honestly LOVE singing on both of those sets. I don't think people get how much I really enjoy it. Danielle's set was good, the final song though was one which I know I suck at, so I decided just to get up and leave. Probably not the best thing in the world. lol, but Danielle knows I hate doing that one, and I know she is trying to help me, (Which she is!) At Jessica's set, I prayed right before I jumped up there that I would have true freedom, and that I wouldn't give a crap what people thought, well, I accomplished that (at least through out the set, lol) I tried my crappy harmonizing, I tried to sing higher then I really can, I did everything I thought I couldn't.

The poor people in the rows.

I think I try to be everything some people try not to be. I'm usually quiet and timid up there because I don't want to be that one-crappy-singer-who-does-nothing-but-just-keeps-screaming-in-the-microphone type of girl. I would rather be the humble person who always thinks she sucks. In my head, it's much better! I have people tell me different opinions of my voice "Oh Evie, you're AMAZING, keep going at it! God has even better things for you!" or, "Uh, er, Evie, maybe you should try to stay more quiet, you have to practice a little more because you're going off-key most of the time." I hate honesty. I would rather people tell me that i'm "amazing" all the time, but then again, I know that they really would be lying, and it's helping to "Build me up in ways I couldn't have imagined." I, on the other hand, love giving compliments to people as much as I like receiving them. I think it's just about the nicest thing when someone says "Why, don't you look pretty today." With a big smile on their face, Why not give back what you receive? I never lie when I give my compliments, but seriously, how much brighter could you make someones day?

I'm trying to reassure myself that lots of people go off key alot, and that I just need to probably spit out some money and get voice lessons, but gosh I wish I was just really good right off the bat, with no practice whatsoever. I have had crap loads of people give me "Prophesies" that I'm going to "Have this amazing voice" or "Lead incredibly anointing worship" etc. etc., And I think I might just take that a tad too the highest power. I really probably, just need to seek God out, and ask him for everything, because I can't do it myself.
SO! Practice and prayer makes PERFECT I guess I should say.
Blech.