tenderness

Margie's coming tomorrow. :D

Today I was called in to my work on a 10 minute notice...some horrific thing happened with the other nanny, yadda yadda yadda...and while I was sitting there during Cece's nap, I realized how much my heart has changed since I started working as their nanny.

For one, I think i'm now officially a kid person. I never knew how mushy-gushy I could get. If I babysit longer than 5 hours I walk around the rest of the day calling everybody Cece, and singing "I'm horse one, i'm horse two, together we're going to say....'BOOOOO'" I miss having a 3 year old next to me all the time, (literally, miss...i've never felt a heartache like this one)...now I even brag to my friends about her. It's getting embarassing...but I absolutely adore my job, and I don't know how anybody could get sick of, or exasperated with their own kids.

For two, I practically stopped all else in the 'worldly realm'...I've worked hard to maintain my life whole-heartedly after God, which along with it came another thing: My heart is terribly tender to hearing people swear. "WHAT?!" You might say? The notorious Evie who always said "swearing isn't that big of a deal, I mean, where in the bible does it say not to swear?" *gasp* (note the horrible, immature sarcasm) Guys. It's not good for you spiritually. I'll just say that. I won't judge people if you do, but golly I don't like it.

Now, I kind of always was a hypocrite when it came right down to it, to me, hearing the opposite sex swear was just about the most obnoxious-biggest-horrible-demeaning-turn-off-ish thing you could do. But, hey, when I was out with a certain group of friends, here comes evie the sailor.

Movies, youtube videos (my weak point, I love youtube star vloggers), facebook, who you hang out with ALL affect how you handle certain agreements with God. (such as, 'no swearing')

SO I realized, new goal *dun dun dun* (haha, how many goals have I actually accomplished in this blog?!) I don't want to watch movies that have 80 gabizillion sex scenes in it, if I hear more than 3 swear words, I probably should leave the room, and i'm purposely watching a vlogger on youtube that I absolutely-AHH--DOORREE) but he/she's pretty vulgar, I need to QUIT. Ex button. Good bye. Goodenn Togg.

Same goes with people I hang out with, now I think I officially have a nice size group of friends at the furnace which I know are committed to God...I officially have more christian friends than non-christian friends. Even if it took a year to weed out (that sounds horrible, trust me, no hard feelings between any of my friends and me) I'm so happy with my life right now. I have a good job. I have great friends. I'm starting my senior year of high school. I ALMOST got my schedule down for at the furnace.

EXCEPT: All of the sudden, I suck at cooking. NOOoooo.